Watch out, I got too much soul for the world

Stolen stolen meme time!

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 19:28:47 GMT

Leave me a comment saying "Sheewaddywaddy"
- I'll respond by asking you five (or so) questions so I can get to know you better.
- Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
- Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

Here are the questions that I got from mona1990

1. If you could drop everything and go on holiday tomorrow, where you you go tomorrow?
Without a doubt Cornwall. I love it down there, it's so beautiful and peaceful, so many good memories and yes the locals hate n00bs coming and gegging in, but it's only a holiday. I know realistically I'll never really live there.

2. Tell me a celebrity you'd love to meet?
Hmmmm...*ponders*refrains from turning it rp related*

I think maybe someone like Keanu Reeves or Patrick Dempsey or Kevin McKidd.

Or Anthony Hopkins.

Or Christopher Lee!

3. If a movie was made of your life, who you want to play you?
Mahahahahaha!

Hmmmm either Rachel Bilson *snorts* or Sophia Bush purely because she has some awesome dimples and I have dimples and artistic license and exaggeration is needed in film. *noddles*

4. And who would you want to play your love interest?
I have to choose just one love interest?

Oh alright.

Ryan Reynolds (who coincidentally I'm linked to by just TWO degrees of seperation. That's TWO!)

5. Favourite Disney movie?
Ah Disney, it makes me feel all safe and calm inside, like comfort food or a nice hot cup of tea.

My favourite Disney film...it's a tie between Tron, The Black Cauldron, Oliver and Company and The Tale of Natty Gan.

Yes, yes, i know that's four. I have to choose one only? :-S

Oliver and Co, because of the songs and Tito the chihuahua. Or however you spell it. ^_^

Stolen Meme

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 20:32:43 GMT

Guess the song lyrics! Stoled from my f'listies! :-D

01# I got too much soul for the world, and it's breaking my heart in two

02# ~~I looked up into the night sky, and see a thousand eyes staring back, and all around these golden beacons, I see nothing but black~~ Black and Gold by Sam Sparro - Guessed by Welshie

03# ~~Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard, Their shadows searching in the night, Streetlight people, living just to find emotion, Hiding, somewhere in the night~~ Don't Stop Believing by Journey - Guessed by Welshie

04# I didn't know just what to expect, She threw her arms around my neck, We started dancin all around the floor, And then she did a dance I never saw before

05# ~~You're a cold piece of steel between my ribs and there's no saving me, And I can't get up from this wet crimson bed that you made for me~~ Furious Angels by Rob Dougan - Guessed by Welshie

06# ~~They say we can love who we trust, But what is love without lust? Two hearts with accurate devotions, And what are feelings without emotions?~~ In for the Kill by La Roux - Guessed by Gemmy

07# With folded arms you occupy the bench like toothache, stood and puffed your chest out like you never lost a war.

08# ~~And I ask you, friend, what's a fella to do? 'Cause her hair was black and her eyes were blue~~ The Galway Girl by Steve Earle - Guessed by Clare

09# ~~She's so much more than you're used to, She know's just how to move to seduce you~~ Ayo Technology by Milow - Guessed by Gemmy

10# ~~Consider this, The slip that brought me, To my knees failed, What if all these fantasies, Come flailing around~~ Losing My Religion by REM - Guessed by Gemmy

Stolen Iconage Meme

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 20:55:45 GMT

Stolen from Welshie and MrsT *does jazz hands*

MAH ICONS.

default	oldest	newest


saddest	happiest	angriest


cutest	sexiest	funniest


fave ship	fave fandom	fave animated


best quote	best textless	best stolen idea


use the most	favorite

HOW MANY ICONS DO YOU HAVE: 57

OUT OF HOW MANY AVAILABLE ICONS SPACES: 112

IF YOU COULD BUY SPACE FOR MORE, WOULD YOU: ...Hmmmm, it's taken me long enough to pluck up the courage and buy more. i think I'll fill the spaces I have up for now. :-)

DO YOUR ICONS MAKE A STATEMENT: Most of them do. But some of them are just for the hell of it or my own benefit. :-D

WHAT FANDOM DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF: RP

AND THE SECOND MOST: Ummmm...Robin Hood? Not sure...

WHAT SHIP DO YOU HAVE THE MOST ICONS OF: Guy/Maz ^_^...Or is it Sana?

ARE YOUR ICONS MADE MOSTLY BY OTHER PEOPLE: Mostly all by me, some by the Awesome Welshie. :-D

DO YOU MAKE ICONS: Yes

ARE THEY ANY GOOD: I hope so...

ANIMATED ICONS ARE: Totally outside of my talents. I've tried and failed so many times mainly because my VLC player keeps crashing when I use the frame forward thingy doohickey.

DO THE MEME.
Coding can be found here

Oh go on then...

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 15:38:28 GMT

Stolen from f'listies.

Name three fics you think I will never, ever, ever write. In return, I will attempt to write a snippet of one of them.

*Gestures* Do your worstest! But I warn you now, if anyone asks for Sawyer/Kate, I will balk!

I Knews It!

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 18:37:45 GMT

I fucking did!

The bitch is pregnant!

i'm such a super sleuth ^_^

A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 08:52:32 GMT

Eeeeks, I missed a few days, but hell, I've had a hectic time. So posting now instead. :-S

For one week, recommend / share:-

Day 1: a song
Day 2: a picture
Day 3: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day 4: a site
Day 5: a youtube clip
Day 6: a quote
Day 7: whatever tickles your fancy

A Picture Worth a Thousand Words

I am more than a little obsessed by art, as you all may well know. If I could win the lottery, art would be what would keep me busy and from either spending all my time shopping my money away or going mental with boredom.

One of my favourite artists is John William Waterhouse. He has a specific style that I've not seen anyone emulate successfully ever.

A lot of his work is hanging in the Walker Art Gallery which is luckily enough in Liverpool CIty Centre, so I've spent more than a few afternoons just sitting in front of the painting that I've chosen in particular.

I'm not quite sure what touches me so much about the painting. Perhaps it's the subject; Echo and Narcissus, the mythology, the ultimate tale of unrequited love. Perhaps I identify with that. The look of comeplete longing and regret and sadness on Echo's face. Or perhaps I just feel that it's a beautiful painting. Maybe a combination of all of the above ^_^

Anywho, I'll post the pic now :-)

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 20:11:42 GMT

Dear LJ,

Curse you for being crap and not loading properly this evening! You suck!

That is all.

Yours narkily

Gem
(no kisses)

And I would share my life with you

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 20:25:20 GMT

Totally stealing from various peoples on my f'list because I've been reading other peoples and find them inspiring ^_^

For one week, recommend / share:-

Day 1: a song
Day 2: a picture
Day 3: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day 4: a site
Day 5: a youtube clip
Day 6: a quote
Day 7: whatever tickles your fancy

A Song for all Seasons

It was hard to chose a song for I love so many and so many really inspire me, but I will always, always come back to this song. When i'm happy, sad, stressed, amused - anything, I can listen to this song on repeat. Forever.

Rob Dougan sounds a little like a very young Chris Rea and the words, god, the words hold so much emotion and meaning. Hell, if I had half the patience and a spit of the talent needed to make a vid to this song, I so would.

And thus, I leave thee all with my favourite ever song (yes, I can say that truthfully and without question); Furious Angels.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3GNBTVjlOA

Updateness

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 20:11:13 GMT

So, after two nights of faffing with html codes and what not, I now have a new layout and header image. Meh, it will do until I have more time to fix it at the weekend.

Mostly it stemmed from my current obsession with Wuthering Heights' most recent TV adaptation (brilliantly and blindingly brought to life by Tom Hardy, Charlotte Riley, Andrew Lincoln and Sarah Lancashire...amazing cast if ever I saw one)

Can I have just a moment to fangirl, please? I've always loved Tom Hardy and I've had a love affair with Andrew Lincoln ever since Afterlife, but I've only just discovered the awesomeness of Riley. She's fantastic and her chemistry with Hardy on screne is amazing. Of course this is likely down to the fact that they worked together on The Take (which I really need to watch) but whatever it is, it makes for a fantastic re-telling of one of my favourite books (it's tied with Jane Eyre and Her Benny ^_^ )

In other news, work is really busy but a laugh. Hayley has moved downstairs with me and the Bitchness has moved upstairs and will most likely announce that she is expecting any day now. *rolls eyes* We're having an in-flux of volunteers (2 new troubled teen lads, one of whom is argumentative but enthusiastic and one who keeps skiving off, and a new woman who will cover reception on monday mornings 9am to 1pm while I go down into the scary-ass basement and start work on the 30 years worth of paper archives. Of course I'll be training her for a month or so before I let her loose on the general public, but yeah. We also have two other volunteers who've been with us a lot longer, Barony and Henry.). They're not so bad, but we're questioning why the Director keeps taking them all in. Oh well, it is not for us mere mortals to question. ^_^

Looking forwards to seeing Dorian Grey with Hayley on Friday night. It's her favourite ever film and so she's excited about seeing the new version and me, well i'm going to oggle Barnsey and The Firth. :-D

A great start to the weekend it shall be methinks.

That friday feeling

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 10:47:09 GMT

God am I knackered! Yesterday was exhausting. Felt like my feet never touched the ground.

Work has been scarily busy over the past week as the Director has been working on an application for some new funding for us (£750,000.00 worth to be exact, so it's a big deal) and I've been ringing the other two companies that we're working in conjunction with on the Feasibility Study getting all the little bits and pieces and statistics that she needed for the report. *Sighs*

But I soldiered on and did it because yesterday was friday and that evening I was due to be going to Nandos with my family and littlest sister's bestie, Chloe who was coming for a day out and then a sleep over.

It had been agreed at the beginning of the week that I would nick off work early (as was discussed with Manager and agreed) and I was to pick up brother from the trainstation, whip home to change and then head off to Cheshire Oaks for our table at 6ish.

...I left work at half past 6 and if my manager hadn't told the Director that I was out for a meal and told me to go, I would've still been there at 9.

The Director needed my help to put all the pictures into her report and then add the Technical Team Leader's report and then someone else's report in to it. i did all the appendices, the statistic tables, the formatting, the spell checking, everything! I compressed everything. And without me I know she wouldn't have been able to get it finished (the closing date for submission is tuesday) and I think she did kind of see that I was a valuable asset and that I know a hell of a lot more than just how to answer a phone and tell someone they can go up to the third floor.

Perhaps it will help her decision if Preggers Girl ever comes back. Perhaps she thinks it was part of my job to help her anyway. I don't know.

I didn't mind helping her, course not. I'll help anyone in need if I can. But it's that she never ASKED me, she just assumed I would anyway.

I had my Dad ringing me asking where the hell I was and then Director saying (when I told her my Dad was mad because I wasn't there to pick up my brother) "How old is your brother? Can't he get home himself?"...which I agree with, but that's not the point. The point is, is that it wasn't HER place to say that.

Gah.

And we may not even get the stupid funding. But if we do I am SO expecting a raise!

Mum wants me to look else where for work and hell the money is tight, but I get on so well with the likes of my manager and nice co-worker and the tenants. Leaving doesn't mean that I'll lose touch with them, I know that, but, I don't know. Can I cope going through being the new girl all over again? Can I even find a new job? I suppose it doesn't hurt trying, I'll have this place until may and maybe longer, but just, stress!

I dunno. *waves hand* Will ponder over the weekend.

Drama and Drama and Drama OH MY!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:59:13 GMT

I know, I know, I keep promising to write an update about the Awesomeness of Wales and I will...just...when this working week is over and things have calmed down again.

Things are tense in the office.

Cutting a very long and boring story short the following has/is happened/happening: -

1) Building Manager is being a bitch/not doing her job
2) She's trying to put shit on me by saying I'm not doing work for her (which is FALSE!)
3) She's got it in for me and my manager
4) She's all buddy buddy with Pregger's Girl suddenly when they use to bad-mouth and bitch about each other all the time
5) She hates me because I won't entertain bitching with her about the others
6) She refuses to help me, even picking up the phone while I'm on the other line/dealing with the public or tenants/on my hands and knees picking stuff up on the floor
7) She ignored me very rudely after her supervision session with the Director
8) She made certain comments on facebook that were aimed at me and where, thus upsetting
9) She's back in the office tomorrow

Stress. Lots and lots of stress. Put on top of that failing Training Sessions and mardy people on the phone and I'm ready to explode.

On a plus note the Irish lot are behaving themselves and me, my manager and co-worker are a stronger unit than ever.

So jog on, the lot of them! Jog on to the Building Manager and the Mardy People and all the rest of those who are making me feel like CACK (and provoking certain voices) at the moment! *shakes fist*. JOG ON I SAY!

Hooray for the Weekend!

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 11:55:59 GMT

At some point I'll stop being lazy and type a write-up of the amazingness of the Wale Holiday, but for now I'm gonna do a meme that I actually stole from Blanca...urrr, I mean Alexa Chung in a recent interview she did. With a bit of tweaking.

Hate vs. Love Meme!

by Scousie & Blanca ^_^

- Write down 10 things that you hate and then 10 things that you love centred around the same topic.

1. I hate that my room is tiny and painted pink but I love that I have a huge window sill that you can sit on if you want coz you get such a good view of the sea and, on a good day, the Welsh mountains.

2. I hate that my car is on finance and is obscenely priced but I love that it's mine and that I bought him when I did, because last year would have been shocking without my car to take me places.

3. I hate that my job is only scheduled for a year but I love *most* of the people I work with, I've really gelled with them, the work is interesting and i think I'll be in touch with them for a long time if I have to leave next May (even if they don't want the other girl back and are thinking of ways to keep me on).

4. I hate that I live so far away from my friends but I love them all dearly and though our meet-ups are few and far between, that only makes them all the more special when we do get to meet up. :-)

5. I hate that I'm still living at home at 25 but I love my family with all my heart (even if the do try my patience at times) and would be lost without them.

6. I hate that Margaret at work still won't tell me who my admirer is but I love the fact that I have one. It make me feel flattered and is a novelty since I've never had one before now.

7. I hate that the working week goes so slow but I love my weekends. Nothing better than waking up late on a Saturday morning, washing away the working week and then doing whatever I feel like instead of what the Director asks me to.

8. I hate people who say that "immitation is the sincerest form of flattery", it's not, it's frickin' annoying but I love that I'm strong enough now to have my own take on things, I don't feel the need to immitate or copy.

9. I hate that it rarely seems to thunder up here anymore but I loved the torrential rain we had the other day. I spent ages watching it from my window at work.

10. I hate having writer's and artist's block, it's the bain of my existence, but I love that I have enough ability in writing and talent in art for me to have block in the first place.

Tadaaaaaaa! Do it if you want, but it was mostly just a bit of fun for me. :-)

Oh it's a jolly holiday with Maryyyyyyy!

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 23:49:25 GMT

There was a time when I thought I'd never make it to now, here, the almost eve of WALES. And yet here I am. Burning a disc for my co-worker and fighting the worst cold/fake swine flu bout in the history of mankind (the kind that killed off the aliens in War of the Worlds) and wondering at how my hols have come around sooooo fast, despite all the months of waiting. They're finally here and I can't wait to get away for a whoooooole 8 days and be with the girls I adore!

Half a day of work tomorrow and then I'll be heading home to pack and prepare for the impending arrival of Gemmy and Princess at mine on Saturday morning...well, once I've escorted them from Warrington that is ;-) and then tea/breakfast, chill for a couple of hours before onwards to Llandudno and the rest of the troup. ^_^

So excited now. Probably should sleep since I won't be getting much tomorrow night...or any night after that really *snorts* far too much to talk about to sleep next week.

Oh yes, and 80's night. *giggles* I've grown so very attached to my neon orange legwarmers, i might take to wearing them for work!

Anywhoodles, soundslike disc is buring so sleep, sleep...if I can stop sniffing and sneezing that is. ;-)

Stolen Meme - Part 1

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 20:42:30 GMT

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

Gemmy gave me: -

Winchester
Winchester means love! Or more specifically Sam, Dean and John Winchester mean love. :-) Supernatural is a big family thing in my house...even my littlest sister shall be watching it soon since she turned 15 next January. Something that we all enjoy equally, that we do not argue about and that we watch religiously. Although, eldest little sister stole "Dean" from me *rolls eyes* I so liked him first. But then, John and Castiel are enough to keep me entertained ^_^

Lambada
My childhood! I have such vivid, early memories of this song. It's beautiful, and when I hear it I think of those carefree days when I was all of 4 or 5. My "Lambada Skirt" that my mum bought specially for me. The musical jewellery box she bought for me that played it. Also when they played it at the Disco last year in Nottingham. ^_^ Good times. :-)

Lambrini
My poison of choice. It's cheap. It's cheerful. It's fizzy. It tastes like lemonade. It comes in bigass sized bottles and it's Liverpudlian! :-D

Jonezy
My child! My beautiful, beautiful car! Tiny and silver and zippy as he is. He has carried me many, many miles over the past year. Most notably my first trip up to Northumberland. Then down to Swindon. I've been here, I've been there. He's done me proud my little Jonezy and he was my main motivation to keep temping until I found a permenant job. Because he is mine and if I'd had him reposessed I would have been devestated. My Jonezy! He'll do me proud in Wales too. I knows it. And Edith too...

Merryn
My first true female voice on the RP. Faceclaimed as Amanda Seyfried after I saw Mamma Mia on the cinema for the first time. i have angsted over her, laughed over her and despaired. She's been on a journey and I've been with her. I killed her horse just to make her suffer more. And while she may not be my most historically accurate voice, hell, she may justbe plain stupid sometimes, I'll love her always as my first female voice.

Sleepless in Seatle...ummm, I mean Wallasey

Tue, 30 Jun 2009 22:38:09 GMT

So it's not that late, but it is for a work night and especially moi who like my sleep.

Can't drift off and thus here I am online. :-S

Nervous-ish about tomorrow...though more so about this stupid LCC monitoring form I've forgotten to fill out this month :-S Okay, so it ain't the end of the world. I can skim back over rmy emails and the signing in book and put down at least half of the people i've dealt with this month, but not all. Hell, I speak to so many people on a daily basis, how they expect me to keep up with it I dunno.

But meh.

Not all that nervous about my photoshop demo tomorrow, since i tried to write it all down and was just wasting my time. It's all common sense and stuff I can show them in the moment and doesn't need an essay about it. Plus, if I type it for them, they'll be less likely to ask for my help later on.

Is this sneaky and underhand of me...? Hell yes! ^_^

On another note, it's far far too hot. Got the fan on full pelt but it's just so...cloying. :-S Am thinking this has something to do with my lack of sleepiness.

Oh! And guess who's stopped phoning me?! X-D That's right! You guessed it! Barclays! *sticks up two fingers and blows raspberry* Jog on you bastards! Jog! ON!

*Sighs* Better try to sleep I guess.

Photoshop - My One True Love

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 18:01:10 GMT

So, to cut a long story down into teeny tiny bitesized nougats...

...Last thursday, Rosie (the Director a.k.a Big Boss) asked me to phone around training providers in the North West and find out how much it would cost to get them in to do some in house training courses for the Technical Team staff on...Photoshop.

Now, me being me, I'm pretty shy. I don't really like to push myself forwards and blow my own trumpet...But I love photoshop. Seriously, I'm addicted to the thing. Half of my f'list will back me up when I say I was like mad women when I was without my beloved Photoshop 7 for three whole weeks or however long it lasted.

So, going against my usual nature, I spoke to my colleague, Hayley, about it, told her I used Photoshop practically every day and I could save the company at least £600 a head that they would've spent on training.

Hayley spoke to Jacqui (Head Admin and my boss) and I spoke to Rosie and Nigel (Head of the Committee).

And then I went off and had a lovely long three day weekend.

Today's been pretty hectic, probably due to the heat and people's tempers being frayed, and I thought nothing of thursday's conversations, I actually forgot all about it until Rosie emailed me and said "Gemma, how well do you know photoshop and would you be willing to offer some initial training and support until we have a budget for and external training?"

Hell, I had to refrain from replying "Bitch, pls!". She is my Boss after all and thought that that tone of voice might not be appreciated. ^_^

And so I explained about learning it at uni and that I've been using it ever since and what exactly I'd been using it for in the House of Bathrooms and such (leaving out all the many sigs and icons and banners and headers I've created for RP related projects *grins*) and that I'd be more than happy to help out wherever and whenever and however I could.

Then John (Technical Team Leader and another Boss for moi) emailed and asked me to explain which version he needs and what license and components and whether I'd be able to offer a demonstration for the Technical Team in their Team Meeting on Wednesday afternoon.

So, the rest is history. I'm teaching 7 people double my age how to use photoshop on wednesday, with reception covered for me for two hours.

I just hope that I can remain calm enough so that I can actually show them what I can do.

I other news, I'm peed off at the Robin Hood finale, even if it did reawaken my love of Guy/Marian. Thus, I felt it high time for a new LJ header *points upwards*

In other less happy news, Barclays are still hounding me, even though I've made two payments to them and I'm at work all day and, therefore, nowhere near the house, let alone the house phone! Psssssh, waddaya want, Barclays? A frickin' kidney?

Death to Barclays

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 13:23:40 GMT

Okay, I'm going to have a rant.

So it's the credit crunch. Yes. And I'm not going to lie, times are tight, especially with the whole being made redundant, temping, being on lower wages malarky.

So yes, I'll admit. I missed a payment for my credit card. Whoopdeefuckingdoo!

Does that give them the right to ring my house 15 times yesterday with an automated message asking me to ring them? I missed one fricking payment and they're harrassing me. It's not like I do it all the time. Hell, when I was temping I never missed a single one...but just once, I pay it a little bit late and schoooooooooooom their on me like I've actually gone down to my local branch and held them up at gun point!

Bastards.

I hate banks, Barclays especially.

They can go and swivell!

Another Year Older

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 08:43:59 GMT

So, had a fabulous day yesterday, that was mostly spent chilling and then panicking that I'd not done something or should've been in work, even though I booked my birthday off, like, two weeks ago *snorts at self*

It was lovely. :-)

Mum and Dad bought me a new bag, the new Gucci perfume, a Leopard top (they know me so well, all my tops are currently leopards, tigers or zebras ^_^ ) and a book.

Sister #1 got me the Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles TV series (which we started to watch when it was being aired on Virgin1 but stopped watching because no one else but me was interested...ha ha! We're bloody well watching it now!)

Sister #2 got me The Spirit dvd (which, as it's based on the graphic novel by Frank Miller is obviously gorgeous and stylized...but is the weirdest, funniest film I've seen in a long time. Sheer, sheer comedy brilliance...whether it's suppose to be or not ^_^ )

Brother bought me Malteasers, Quarantine dvd (which I've wanted for ages as I saw the Spanish version that it's a remake of and adored it) and Definitely, Maybe dvd with Ryan Reynolds *Pats Ward* (I'm sure the brother knowns something about the charries. *narrows eyes* A fact that I'm seriously worried about since he told me of a nightmare he had a couple of days ago where Ryan Reynolds was trying to kill him...what the hell, Ward? You're only suppose to visit people who know about the RP! *Ward shrugs*)

Got money from my Grandad and some pink fluffy cheap stuff from his girlfriend (which, while I'm not a snob or ungrateful, just...she always does this and I would be happy with just a card from her. Seriously, she's not related to me, doesn't mean a thing to me and has made the reverse clear too. We're not her favourite people and she would rather my Grandad spend time with her family instead of us...so yeah, I don't think I'm being a bitch when I say, I'd rather just get a card from her)

And a book voucher from Auntie and cousin which I used to buy Jodi Picoult's "My Sister's Keeper" yesterday. Have only read the first chapter and already I can tell it's a tear jerker. Curse you, chicklit! Curse you! ^_^

I also got some gorgeous shoes from next in preparation for Wales holiday in August...which look and feel like them might be agony to wear, but no pain no gain, hey? ;-)

This is them in fact!

http://www.next.co.uk/shopping/women/shoes/30/17

Music wise I bought Michael Jackson's Greatest Hits (god rest his hounded soul), Elvis' Greatest Hits (*salutes the King*), Kasabian's first album for £3 (!!!) and Virgin Territory (which looks like it's going to be such a crappy film....but Hayden Christensen and Tim Roth in a swords and sandals comedy = MADE OF WIN! I know even if it is crap, I'm going to love it! :-) )

So, all in all, I have had a fabulous day, thanks to everyone for their birthday wishes and for making my day special. Love you all so so so much.

Black Friday

Fri, 19 Jun 2009 17:21:42 GMT

I'm still feeling slightly hysterical about today. Not hysterical enough to bring me to tears, Like House of Nightmares use to, just hysterical like I feel as though i'm losing my damn mind.

So, I wake up pretty late in the mornings anyway, compared to most working peoples. I set my alarms (both clock and phone) for 7:15am when in actual fact I don't get up till 7:45am. *Shrugs* I'm not a morning person, I hate mornings, especially early ones. Anyway, to get to work on time (8:45am) I need to leave the house no later than 8:05am to be to the train station for 8:12am to be on the 8:17am train. Sounds easy enough yes?

The next part is probably my fault, but it can't be helped. The alarms, for some reason, did not go off after I pressed snooze the first time. I should get up straight away, I hear you cry! It's my own fault, I agree, I agree.

So I wake up at 8:05am when I'm suppose to be getting in my car and leaving. I raced around, ironed clothes, grabbed back and set off for station thinking, "I'll only be 5 minutes late if I make the train from West Kirby directly behind the New Brighton one"

Race to the station, proper road rage inducing raced! To find I have no purse and no way to buy a fucking ticket.

Race all the way back home, by this point there's no way I can get to work on time by using the train, collect purse and decide to try and drive it through rush hour traffic into Liverpool and find the elusive £2.50 car park that I've heard tell of.

Traffic was the worst I've seen. Hit every single red light and jumped to park in the first car park I saw somewhere in the general direction of my work.

So i was feeling harrassed and rushed already. Hadn't brushed my hair or teeth, stink to high heavens, no make up. Just looked like a scarecrow. Like a tramp! I've felt like a tramp all day!

Leg it from the car park, which cost £12.50 all fucking day.

Make it into work for 9:00am.

15 minutes late.

Nightmare.

Told Hayley my co-admin worker when she arrived and Jacqui my manager and both said it was fine because it's not happened before, not like how Amy was, and Jacqui already owed me time from when I stayed late to watch the removal men yadda yadda yadda off topic.

Just, I've felt rushed all day. Scraggy, incomplete.

And then the Boy showed up and cutting a long story short everyone practically knows now that I like him and it's not him. He has long term girlfriend (which is good news, because I feel like i can so move on now without wondering "what if...") so there's still an admirer floating around somewhere and I don't know who the fuck it is. And I'm embarrassed because Jacqui kinda took the piss out of me a bit, but not meant to be horrible I don't think...and it was even more embarrassing because she commented that I looked pasty today, because of the no make up and unbrushed hair and such but *waves hand* and then said she was going to ask Margaret who the admirer was because it was "affecting her staff"...affecting me my arse!

And then fucking Rosie (Director) sent me an email telling me to start marketing the training taster sessions, when I've already started as Jacqui and I agreed to stat sending stuff out ages ago...but because of the face melter on the phone on monday (who she said she would complain about, but hasn't I might add!) she wants me to design flyers to make the email attachments smaller.

So I'm bricking it about having sent stuff out too soon...even though I already have 6 people booked onto the course.

*Holds head in hands*

S'not all bad, I did have a good laugh with Hayley and Jacqui about stuff...that's prolly a bit too rude and shocking to post on here, but had me crying with laughter.

i just think I'm a bit...hysterical!

Thank Baby Jaysus it's FRIDAY! That's all I can say!

The hour is late and I'm still awake :-S

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 23:36:40 GMT

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

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In other news, work was weird and poo (which i shall rant about tomorrow) and I've just sobbed my heart out over the penultimate episode of Grey's Anatomy.

Stolen Film Meme

Sun, 14 Jun 2009 16:36:51 GMT

Stolen from Welshie and Gemmy ^_^

1. Pick 20 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDB search or other search functions.

I) "All you people are so scared of me. Most days I'd take that as a compliment. But it ain't me you gotta worry about now."

2) "Man, this floor is freezing."
"What do you want me to do, fetch your slippers for you?"
"Gee, would you sir? I'd like that."
"Look into my eye."

~~3) "Cyborgs don't feel pain. I do. Don't do that again.~~" (Terminator - Got by Skaski)

~~4) "We meet again, at last. The circle is now complete. When I left you, I was but the learner; now *I* am the master~~." (Star Wars: A New Hope - Guessed by Skaski)

~~5) "All this fricking yoga made my feet bigger.~~" (Mamma Mia - Got by Gemmy)

~~6) "You don't buy black lingerie unless you want someone to see it."~~ (10 Things i Hate About You - Got by Welshie)

~~7) "I smell [sniffs air] skanks. Why don't you girls just pack it up before I leave tread marks on your face?~~" (The Fast and the Furious - Got by Welshie)

8) "Well if Denise was here right now, what would you say?"
"I'd say, "Help... a teenager cut my balls off. Call the police."

~~9) "Quiver ladies, quiver.~~" (Fifth Element - guessed by Skaski)

10) "We need to sell that shit on eBay."
"I only have one."
"We'll split the profits fifty-fifty, corner the market, break 'em down like a shotgun. The Polish Penatrater."

11) ~~"OK, let me put a stop to that little brain fart right now. Girls with asses like mine do not talk to boys with faces like yours.~~" (She's The Man - Guessed by Skaski)

~~12) "They're here!~~" (Poltergeist - Guessed by Skaski)

13) "Must be so hard to watch your younger sister get married before you."
"Yes. Then I remember that I still get to have hot hate sex with random strangers and I feel SO much better!" (27 Dresses - Guessed by Skaski)

~~14) "Don't worry, Penny. There's still plenty of time to get pregnant and go on welfare.~~" (BLue Crush - Guessed by Gemmy)

15) "Mr. and Mrs. Sheriff. So sweet. So helpless against what is coming."

16) "You ever read the bible, Dan? I read it one time. I was eight years old. My daddy just got hisself killed over a shot of whiskey and my mama said "we're going back East to start over". So she gave me a bible, sat me down in the train station, told me to read it. She was gonna get our tickets. Well, I did what she said. I read that bible from cover to cover. It took me three days. She never came back." (3:10 to Yume - Got by Snugduff)

17) "There's a time when you can share and you hold hands and be on the same path. But there's always a fork in the road... at some point. And sometimes you have to go on one part of the fork and they gotta go on the other part of the fork. Or just down the back part of the fork while you go forward. And they're like *sigh* Or they got a salad fork and you have one of the big dinner forks and you have longer to go but they're like done because that's it, they're stuck on a piece of food, that they *sigh*. A desert fork or like one of those, you know small little shrimp forks or crab forks and you're trying to get out a crab. They're like that and you're over here jumping to the huge serving fork or something like that, or a ladle, you know." (28 Days - Got by Welshie)

~~18) "One thing about living in Santa Carla I never could stomach, all the damn vampires."~~ (The Lost Boys - Guessed by Skaski)

19) "Don't go mistaking paradise for a pair of long legs."

~~20) "Hello, John. John, hello. You're the one soul I would come up here to collect myself.~~" (Constantine - Got by Welshie)

Stolen Meme ^_^

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:08:32 GMT

Pinched from Welshie ^_^

Please fill in and pop it in a comment! Merci!

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
A.
2) What was your dream growing up?
A.
3) What talent do you wish you had?
A.
4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
A.
5) Favorite vegetable?
A.
6) What was the last book you read?
A.
7) What zodiac sign are you?
A.
8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
A.
9) Worst Habit?
A.
10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
A.
11) What is your favorite sport?
A.
12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
A.
13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
A.
14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
A.
15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
A.
16) Do you have any pets?
A.
17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
A.
18) What was your first impression of me?
A.
19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
A.
20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
A.
21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
A.
22) What color eyes do you have?
A.
23) Ever been arrested?
A.
24) Bottle or can soda?
A.
25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
A.
27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
A.
28) Do you believe in ghosts?
A.
29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
A.
30) Do you swear a lot?
A.
31) Biggest pet peeve?
A.
32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
A.
33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
A.
35) Do you believe in God?
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36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A.

Shoulda Known Better..

Fri, 05 Jun 2009 18:29:30 GMT

Boy, faking being chipper when you feel like poo is a hard thing to do.

Hence why I currently hiding out in my room, away from the family before they realise that this smile ain't quite reaching the eyes.

He never came back. Stupid arse invited me to his leaving meal this morning, then kind of took it back by saying "But I know it's really short notice" and promised to come see me before he left. Then he left at three and didn't come back.

And so another one bites the dust.

He came and sat in my office for best part of an hour this morning and then ignored me the rest of the day.

Seriously, wtf kind of message is that?

Perhaps it's better that he's gone now. *shrugs* I can go back to being my normal, no-hope self without constantly wondering if it was him or if Margaret is going to pop in the office at any second and ask me another stupid ass question pertaining to something trivial and useless.

And don't my words just smack of bitterness right now?

I'll get over it. *waves hand* I'll be fiiiiiiiiiiiine.

Back to planning out my future as a crazy, lonely old cat lady.

FAIL!

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:01:49 GMT

I've lost my ipod. Somewhere...in the office...*narrows eyes and glares at office*

I had it in my hand this morning when opening the door to work, took it off to get keys out, put it and my keys in the milk tray to carry it in, unlocked safety door, unloced office door and then divided milk out to whoever and then nadda...

Keys are in my bag bu ipod nowhere to be found.

I searched high and low, emptied my bag and it's just...not there.

Okay, so it's a generation 1 ipod, ancient and not big enough for all the songs I want...but it was my Poddy! I loved it and I just bought new headphones not long ago and it's just MINE and i WANT it!

*Cries*

And the Boy is made of epic Fail since today was his day off and he's been ignoring me all week save for a hello yesterday and a telephone conversation about a late appointment for the Irish Centre.

And bloody Margaret asking me what my surname is and what footy team I support and whether my cold is any better when she's barely said hi before this "admirer" made himself known to her...

*Sighs*

It's so frustrating because, yes, I do like him, really, really, and I'm scared to come out and ask her who it is and then tell her I like Him specifically in case its, well, not him!

Plus it's his last week this week and then he's back to uni...alright only John Moores, but still, he's not going to be IN the office anymore and I'm also scared of this...whatever it is...just being brushed off as nothing.

If it even is him!

Gah! Back to square 1, see?

Round and round and fucking round in circles and it's doing my nut in! >:-(

DUDE, I made you tea 2 days on the run! If you can't see that I like you then you're a plonker!

Random Update

Thu, 28 May 2009 19:59:17 GMT

Full to the eyeballs with snot and congestion and general yuckiness at the moment. Apologies for being so descriptive, but I am. After swearing to work colleagues that "I have the immune system of a OX! I can't GET ill! Pah I say and PAH again!"

Had an uberly good weekend in Newcastle mit the Troup ^_^ *huggles them tight* just catching up on the sleep now. Note to self, do not wear wedges two nights out in a row. ;-)

Was invited to the staff/building night out yesterday which was good. Got there okay and the food was lovely. Went to a little Greek restaurant. Would've enjoyed it more if the Boy had been there...but meh. *waves hand*

And on the subject of The Boy, it's been narrowed down by the Ever Helpful Margaret to "Not one of the Clients"

Huzzah for that! Had a scare that it was one of the drunks on tuesday, but Margaret put my mind at rest...a bit. Old bint is still refusing to tell me outright. "I'll come in and give you little dribs and drabs of information and clues. *giggles*" O______O Okay Margaret...whatever you say. And then she proceeded to ask me whether I liked taller men and how tall I was...seriously, the woman is loony!

So, it's either of the two lads who works for the centre. She skirted over the question when I asked her if it was someone I knew. *narrows eyes*

*Sighs*